For your information, I used to obtain 30, always 30 tak kurang tak lebih, starting from my 2nd test till the exam just before the trial examination. For the first exam it was somewhere around 60, and the same for that trial exam. Then finally I got 2A for SPM.
Tapi masa tu saya ni budak lagi, masih disogok dengan bayangan betapa 'cool' nya pekerjaan sebagai seorang 'Ingénieur'. Tolak ketepi kepayahan keperitan dalam Math dan Sains.
SPM tamat, masuk UTP January Intake. Only here I realized that this is simply not for me.
I talked about it with my parents, I told them that I wanna be a pilot but they were not agree with me. Still clearly remembered, how they lecture me about the 'suckness' of being a pilot. Bla bla bla.
Ahh. Malas laa nak tulis panjang-panjang lagi.
Tapi pendek kata, aku tak pernah tension atau rasa susah kalu jawab atau stadi soklan Qur'an Sunnah, Syari'ah Islamiah, Sejarah, English dan BM. Sampai sekarang, kalau civilization pon tak susah.
Tapi berpeluh pale otak aku kalu buat benda Sains+Math.
I wish I could answer my Engineering related subject' tests just like how I answer my English test just now. T.T
No matter what happen, the strive, the survival will never end. Even I'll give my blood if it is what does it take to succeed.
Don't get me wrong. Erm.
Here I just want to be realistic. There are people who are gifted in such scientific things, and there are also those who are gifted in stuffs like English, history. There are also people who happen to be brilliant in both.
Seems like I fall into the second category. Ever since I was in school, my mates were scoring for fun in Sciences subjects just like how Ruud van Nistelrooy was scoring for fun in the EPL back in 2002-2003.
I tried fucking hard, but I couldn't. Trust me, on top of revision at home, I even went to 3 tuition centers for the sake of an 'A' in add math.
But when it comes to English and history, I used to do better than them. Maybe I could have been a good lawyer. Even my BM essays was always among the best.
When we were at La Rochelle, I ranked joined 3rd out of 11 students in French, but nombor satu dari belakang dalam sains related subjects.
Bahasa Arab tu special case la.
I'm depressed. Feel like I'm a misfiring sniper.
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u have all the rights to be depressed. but dont be to much, or u'll end up like a living zombie.
i got ur back.
the situation is way too similar as mine, so i can't help feeling that i should comment as well ;p
i'm no good when it comes to math/science too. i love language...
while you'd been seduced by the impression that being 'ingenieur' is cool, me on the other hand, accepted the jan06 utp offer just because i'm blinded by the so-called prestige of being a *pet scholar....i didnt even think twice of pursuing my true passion: French studies.
reason?
balik m'sia kene jadi cikgu. x glamour. silly me.
but dont despair. you'll find a way. after all, engineering student-turn-pilot is not uncommon at all. just make sure u do want it bad enough to make it happen :)
Ayen : Doesnt help much..
Zaim : Tu laa mentaliti orang Asia. Kerja untuk hidup. Bukan untuk kepuasan peribadi macam kebanyakan omputeh ni. Aikk minak French ek?
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