Luahan hati

I have a secret ambition. I wanna be an actor.

Boleh tak ai nak jadi hero tapi takmo peluk-peluk atau pegang pelakon perempuan?

Kepala tengah mereng ni sebenarnya. Minggu depan (baca : selasa ni atau lusa, rabu, khamis dan jumaat) kena re-sit exam untuk 4 core merangkap killer subjects. Giler betul, separuh coursemate kena re-sit.

Seriously this French Bachelor Degree is not a piece of cake. Dah la takde projek untuk back up markah. Evaluation untuk setiap subjek dia ialah 50% dari exam final, 25% dari satu test dan 25% dari lab session.

Nampaknya markah dari lab je yang macam boleh score. Tapi cukupkah ia? To make things worse, each semester is independent, meaning that let say I only manage to get 9/20 for this semester and 20/20 for next semester, I still cannot validate this semester.

Crazy.. Damn it why such thing happens to me at the very final year of my Bachelor' Degree? If I need to extend my degree for another semester, then it is definitely not maybe, that I'll stop studying right after I get my hand on my Degree.

Master? Nehi nehi.. Go fuck a bitch for the fact that I will only finish my studies at 26.. Please , I have objectives in my life.

Aku pancung kepala sape-sape cakap, alaa ruginye orang dah nak sponsor sampai master tapi dia nak stop kat degree. Lu, lu punya hal. Gua, gua punya hal.

C'mon mates.. Please, I had enough of this. Yes I know that some of others are in the same boat with me. I know others have to stay here for 7 years too.

Aku kalu buleh, stay 1000 taun sini pon takpe sayang. But not as a STUDENT. Belajar ni tensen weh. Yeah, memang laa ada kawan omputeh kalu tak dak Malaysian pon.

Tapi kat bandar gampang ni, kawan omputeh aku hampeh2, sume bawak hal sendiri je even aku cube bergaul. Tak se best kawan omputeh kat Angougou dulu. Diorang sume best.

But what ever happen, I will stay strong to finish this mess..

Ai bagitau yu, duk tempat orang sorang-sorang lame-lame ni sangat menguji mental. 5 taun pon aku dah nak sakit jiwa beb. Tapi bila terbayang wajah kedua ibu bapa dan orang-orang tersayang, aku gagahi jua. Chewwwah.

Kalu belajar enjoy takpe. Ni dah la belajar tensen macam bab*, pastu gym pulak kecik cap ayam dan jauh untuk aku pegi tumbuk punching bag lepas geram. Cap ayam sungguh.