Life is wonderful

One of the most talked issue in France is the suicide rate among France Telecom employee. If I am not mistaken, there were around 23 employees of France Telecom committed suicide since the beginning of 2008, according to a famous news agency.

How can such things happen? The most popular cause is stress at work. Almost all the suicide cases classed stress as the reason.

I myself do feel stress sometimes. But that is not the solution. It is something strongly forbidden in Islam, so Alhamdulillah I survive that and Insya Allah I won't end up like that. That is why we need someone to talk to when we are under pressure.

And trust me, He is the One that always listen to you. 'Iyya ka na' budu wa iyya kanas ta'in'. This verse is one of my favorite verse.

I don't like to say bad thing to my profs. Maybe once I was like that, but now I try my best to avoid doing that.

Being here for almost 2 years, I am now in the 2nd year of my 2 years Associate Degree equivalent program.

There is a prof here who always gave us essay questions in all the tests of the subjects he was in charge for. This is my least favorite type of question. And you know what, I never ever passed, even 1 of his tests. Luckily for me, I still manage to validate my semesters.

To be honest, I am not that bad in writing in French. But the problem is there is too much to think of his questions. Even there are lots of my French mates who failed his tests. Seriously because of this, I keep on counting my days here, I want to get away from this.

And that is not the end of it. This semester, our Mechanics prof is another big big big problem for us here. The whole class just cannot follow what ever he taught us.

The problem is, we asked him to re explain, but it is him who refused and if he does, we still cannot understand his explications. And we got no reference, as his excercises are not properly explained, and the notes given is not clear too.

Yeah we do have that fucking library and those books. But we need to restart everything, and it is almost impossible to do so as our test is just around the corner. Don't know how to describe it, I just don't know what combination of words is the best to express what I feel deep inside.

Yeah, sometimes I feel like want to give all up. Those extremely stressful classes of 8am to 6pm, almost everyday, and the fact that it is winter add the salt to that wound.

But I keep telling myself, I will get over this, and I am not the only passenger of this fucking boat, there are other French based students as well. Don't look at people at ease, that will put us in the comfort zone. But we need to look at people who are in much more harder situation, they say. Mind your own business.

At the moment, most of the times in fact, I do not have appetite to further my studies in Engineering school anymore, I have enough. Maybe I will opt to do Bachelor' Degree, less work, they say. We'll see.